Am I allowed to be mad? Or even upset? I keep asking this questions. There are days that I had too much already that I want to explode. But I keep on reminding myself I’m not allowed to be mad. I need to compose myself and just swallow my pride. I feel like I’m the only one to be blame. Everything is my fault. I deserve all of this. I know nothing. I am stupid. I am useless. I am worthless.…
Lately, I’ve been crying every night. A lot of negative thoughts and fears flooded my mind. I don’t know if this is already depression or just my hormones playing tricks. Even thoughts of killing myself comes to mind. And the only one that stops me, is God. But I’m really tired and drained. Waking up in the morning is already exhausting.
I need to release this emotions. I want to cry in front of…
I’ve kept that door closed for the pass 24 years. I have this ideal man inside my head believing that he’ll be the one to torn down those walls. I wanted a perfect love story. A love story that would be my first and last. A love story just like Jacob and Rachel.
Jacob served 7 years to get Rachel’s hand, but Laban deceived him and gave Leah instead, the older sister. But because of his love, he…
